Monday, June 27, 2016

Love Heals

Here I sit at my computer in the wee hours of the night...unable to sleep because of all the thoughts racing through my mind. Sometimes the best medicine for a busy mind is to just write it out. We have had a heck of a week. A week that should have been ordinary turned into one of the most difficult weeks of our lives. I want to go back and write specifically about the days leading up to Baylor's miracle delivery and ongoing recovery to coming home... I hope to do that soon, but for tonight, I just wanted to write out my thoughts on surviving this last week.

So many times people walk through tough's a fact of life. Each and everyone of us will be touched by some sort of difficulty or trial, for some it maybe the heart-wrenching journey of cancer, illnesses, loss of jobs, divorce, loss of a loved one, the list goes on. I've come to realize in this past week that as humans, we can't do this life alone. We need the support of others.  I cannot even begin to express my thanks and gratitude for the new people we have come in contact with this week and as well as our dear friends and family who have clung to us through this journey. Every single nurse, doctor, and staff member has reached out to us with nothing but extreme love and kindness. We have witnessed God's love through so many people and it truly makes a difference in us just getting through each day. We would never be able to make it through without the kindness that has been so greatly lavished upon us. The prayers that have gone up on our behalf mean the world to us and each and every comment on social media, text, email or visit has boosted our morale and given us bits and pieces of strength to keep on moving. I know in 6 months we will look back on this time in our lives and breathe a sigh of will be a time that we grow, learn and become better from.  But in this current time..while we are walking through it...I just can't express enough thanks. My heart overflows with gratitude for my parents, my in-laws, my siblings, my extended family and my dearest friends. Without ya'll we would grow weary and weak, but because of ya'll we are able to walk this road with Baylor and we will come out at the end with our fists held high.  Baylor will be living proof that love can heal. We don't know the exact outcome of Baylor's medical needs yet, but no matter what...we know he is a fighter and because of the love and support he has...he will succeed in all he does.

Our God is so good. He has sustained us through each day and even when the tears are flowing and we are weak and tired...He has given us supernatural strength. Above all, we are looking for ways to show the greatness of God and all He has done on this journey. We are praying that through this journey we will become better equipped to love others through their own difficult journeys. Never before have I realized the value and importance of just simple acts of support...but I know from here on out, Christian and I will look for ways to support others while they walk through their own trials.

I'll leave you with a few pictures of our little guy.  I am journaling each day about his progress and I hope to start documenting that here on my blog soon.  Also I can't wait to share about his birth. Baylor is a complete miracle and the fact that he is here safe is only by the grace of God. When doctors tell you he is a medical mystery... but one that know it is only because of our God.

Introducing our precious Baylor Jace, a true miracle from heaven. He is a fighter and our inspiration for pushing onward.

1 comment:

  1. oh my word! ashlee!!! i am praying for baylor and you and your whole family. i know it is so hard to see you baby in the NICU. and it's the strange feeling of the world stopping inside the NICU, yet still continuing on the outside of those hospital walls. he is a beautiful baby and no doubt God's favor is upon him. i can't wait to hear how he's progressing and the story of his miracle birth. watching your baby go through such a fight gives a whole new meaning to "i need thee every hour" doesn't it?
    praying that you continue to feel the Lord's presence and that Baylor keeps up the good fight!