Tuesday, January 19, 2016

When it rains...it pours

We have had a very rough month. I don't say that for sympathy, but just to keep it real. Life is such a blessing, but let's be real...occasionally it just plain sucks. Excuse my French. We have had a January that I would like to punch in the face, as Weston would say.

We started off the month finding about 9 fraudulent charges to our personal account. Not a huge deal, but for sure not the way we wanted to start off the year. This was pretty much just a big inconvenience of dealing with the bank and trying to get our money back into our account. I just find it incomprehensible that someone has the audacity to just steal your money. Money that we work hard for. I guess I don't understand how someone has no conscience at all. So frustrating.

Couple days later I encounter a dead car battery and Christian has two flat tires, all in one week.
Pretty easy fixes again, just inconveniences.

I had noticed a large lump in one of my breast back in the summer, we ran some test and all came back ok. I didn't really pay much attention to it, but low and behold this month I realized it was back and much larger than before. I mentioned it to my doctor and we decided to really keep an eye on it and check back in a few weeks.

In the meantime, I had some routine bloodwork done at my doctors office, and on Christmas Eve, they called to inform me that it had come back abnormal. I was told to have it checked again, just to be sure. I went back in for round #2 and again, it came back showing my white blood count was off. This news, combined with the lump, sent us into a slight panic. My OB referred me to an Oncologist to see what was going on. Having abnormal blood results and being sent to an Oncologist was extremely unsettling. We really had no idea what was going on and I honestly feared the worst. I had to wait about a week and a half before seeing the doctor and this was one of the worst weeks of my life. Just the unknown can send you into a breakdown. I let my mind wander with the "what-if's" and I was really feeling discouraged and beat down.

Christian and I clung to the fact that no matter what, we would stand strong and allow God to work in whatever situation would come our way. We always know that troublesome times will come our way and we were confident that God would walk us through this no matter the outcome. When we are weak, He alone is strong. He NEVER leaves us and I never once felt abandoned or alone.

We saw the doctor and were given an all clear on the lump, she felt like it was not cancerous but rather just some benign cysts.  The doctor did more bloodwork and it was still abnormal. She felt like the two were not related in anyway, but rather a severe deficiency was causing my white blood count to be low and my red blood cells to be enlarged. We are starting on daily shots to help boost my B12 and Folic Acid for the next few months and then we will recheck everything to be sure that that was the cause.

We walked out of the Oncologist office and literally just cried. We feared cancer and instead were given a more simple diagnosis and treatment plan. We were so relieved. All praise and glory to God that we were given a clean bill of health.

I'd say that was the absolute worst of the month, but the tiny troubles just kept on coming.

My car broke down and we had to have it towed back to the mechanic. We had over $1,800.00 worth of repairs to fix.

Then my sweet Weston gave us some fun times by having some carsickness. Nothing like a little vomit thrown into an already bad week!

Weston also started up with a terrible cough and fever. Things just continued to get worse until we finally took him to the doctor. By that time, he had developed pneumonia and poor thing was just pitiful.

I then get my car back from the shop and not a day later, I go to close the garage door.  Apparently our garage door sensors are not working and instead of sensing that my car was slightly in the way of the door, and going back up...the garage door crushed itself into my car. Thankfully my car was not damaged but our garage door was broken. I most certainly did a little more crying on this particular day as well.

This week, I am routinely checking my business account, and notice over $900.00 worth of fraudulent charges on THAT account.  I immediately call the bank and once again begin the process of trying to get those charges disputed and money put back into my account. At this point, we suspect that our wireless has been hacked and file a police report.

Today I go to get my shots, and I am informed that insurance will not be covering any of my treatment. We will have to pay all of it out of pocket. Again, nothing life shattering, but yet another discouraging situation.

Oh and to top it all off, my car is back in the shop. Apparently something is still not right and so we are once again down to a one car family!

So here we are, only 19 days into 2016 and I am already ready to say let's start over! This has definitely been one of the most trying months we have encountered in a while. However, with all the issues I have to step back and realize all these things aren't huge, some frustrating and some frightening, but none that are fatal. We are so blessed...we will not allow satan to discourage us or get us down. We will press on and do it with a joyful attitude.

Again, I don't share all this looking for any sympathy, but rather to just encourage you. I know I am not the only one to have horrible, no good, bad, awful days. I know so many have walked through things 1000 times worse. I also know that sometimes, it is nice to know everyone's life isn't perfect. Things aren't always sunshine and roses. Sometimes life can get us down and at times we may even want to just give up and crawl under the covers. We must remember that we serve a God who is on our side, a God who is for us...not against us. Not to mention that He is MIGHTY and willing to do amazing things through good and bad situations. 

So here's to hoping your January was much better than ours and also calling for February to hurry up and get here and please to go easy on the Moots' Family!  

3 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness, Ashlee!! That is WAY TOO MUCH for 19 days! Especially the first 19 days of a new year! Ugh! I am so thankful, though, that you do not have cancer! You are right, not knowing is horrible. The what ifs can give you a nervous breakdown. But thankful it is just a deficiency that can easily be fixed. Sorry it isn't covered, though. That is ridiculous. :( I could go on and on about everything you listed! What a trying few weeks for you! I hope your car is back to 100% asap & that the rest of the year is much better! Love you!

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  2. Oh goodness! What a month! First, I am so glad that you got an all-clear from the oncologist. That sounds super scary! Kudos to you for being so intune with your body! Now, we have had the same problems with our credit cards lately. Carl travels for work a ton and every two months or so - someone goes nuts with our info. UGH! Just happened last week - someone went on a wild shopping spree with our card in CA. They spent more in Petsmart than Nordstrom. That shows me that it was a stupid criminal. Gosh, if I had access to someones credit card which I would not ever have - I certainly would not waste major money at Pet Smart!!! People are crazy! Hope your year gets better!!!

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  3. oh my word, when it rans it pours! and believe me, i know this feeling. i felt like our january started off that way last year - stomach bugs, the flu, busted hot water heater, car trouble, flood in the house, etc, etc, etc. it gets to the point where you almost say, "of course! why wouldn't THAT happen? everything else is!" i will pray for peace for you and your family in the midst of all of this - even little inconveniences can add up and wear you down! praise GOD that you got the all clear - i've been there, too. and it was terrifying. it didn't help that going into my appointment i was in the waiting room with women who were currently going through chemo and other cancer treatments - that definitely doesn't settle any nerves! just keep reminding yourself that He goes before you - no matter the situation. and He truly will provide. keep looking for those blessings in disguise! :)

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