From the day he was born, I have called Weston my "angel boy". I don't know why I nicknamed him that from early on, but he sure has lived up to the name. I don't know if you remember or not, but I had a really hard time when I learned Weston was a boy. I realize it was extremely ridiculous for me to be anything but thrilled with whatever God gave me, but I admit I was set on having another girl. I just knew from the beginning that I was going to have two girls and that was the plan I had in mind. The day of the sonogram I was blown away when I found out he was a boy. I admit it took me sometime to adjust to the thought of having a boy. I think it was just that I didn't know anything about boys...I have been around nothing but girls most of my life and I just was more comfortable with girl things. To be completely honest, I was nervous and slightly bummed about having a boy all the way up to my delivery. I completely feel terrible about that now...but it is just how I felt.
However, the moment I laid eyes on Weston, my walls came tumbling down. My fears and apprehension melted away the second we saw each other. There was an instant connection that I cannot even begin to explain. It is almost as if Weston broke me in an amazing way. I realized in that moment and every moment with him since, that God knows far more what we need than we could ever imagine. Our plans for ourselves pale in comparison to God's design for our lives. Weston taught me that lesson in a mighty way.
Weston Hayes has been the best addition to our family. He adds so much fun, laughter and innocence. He is always happy, content no matter what and always up for whatever we are doing. He is a charmer, a goofy ball of smiles and always ready to give kisses. He is a mama's boy, an outdoor lover and a nursing champ. My little man naps great, eats great and poops at the exact same time everyday. (Too much information?) Sorry.
I was determined to give Aubrey Lane a sister, but I honestly don't think she could love Weston anymore if she tried. Their relationship has been pure gold since the moment he arrived. Aubrey has loved Weston from day one and is adamant that he is near her at all times. Don't even think of separating her from her little brother. I laugh because she will baby talk him and say, "come here my little handsome man". I know first hand the amazing blessing of having a brother and I can only hope their relationship will continue to be this unbreakable throughout life.
I can't believe my boy is a year old, but as I look back over this past year, I have no regrets. I have cuddled with this little guy, savored his midnight feedings, kissed his neck and taken in all his sweet fragrances with such determination, because I know how fleeting this time is. I feel like I have been blessed with the opportunity to really enjoy Weston fully...and taken each moment and tried to tuck it away in my heart. Every single night that I put him back in his crib after a nightly feeding, I pray over him and thank God for blessing me with his life.
Weston Hayes, my prayer for you is that you continue to be a ray of sunshine to everyone you come in contact with. May you grow, develop and continue to blossom in all you do. Keep on making me laugh and spreading joy to those around you. May you know how loved and wanted you are and may you always be a momma's boy.
We love you, Weston Hayes. Happy first birthday little man!