Sunday, April 14, 2013

Moving Forward

Life moves on. I've learned that no matter what heartache or pain you are dealing with on a personal level...the world around you moves forward. The world does not stop to mourn your pain or halt to embrace your sadness. Perhaps this isn't a bad thing, if life didn't continue on, we might never find the strength to get back in the saddle. 

I'm gonna be honest, these last few weeks have been tough. Dealing with a loss is not something that goes away in a few days. I struggle to find meaning of it all and there are days I just want to stay in bed and cry.

Things are getting better little by little and I am finding strength in the little things. I'm trying to focus on all the millions of blessings I already have instead of the negatives.

Miscarriage is a horrible thing. Losing a child, no matter how young, is a terrible thing for a mother to endure.

My heart breaks for others who have had to walk this road. My heart breaks for moms who have had to bury children that have spent years with after do people move on from that?

I don't know how people make it through tough times without the Lord. He gives me a peace that could only come from my heavenly Father. In my times of grief, I cry out to Him and He me peace and comfort.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

My heart is healing...I am moving forward, but my love for my baby will never cease. I'll pick up the pieces and find joy and love again...but a part of me will always be gone.

In the meantime, I'll continue to find joy in the little things...peace in my Saviour and hope in a new tomorrow.


  1. Ashlee,
    I am so sorry. I missed your previous post where you shared this. A season of miscarriages was the hardest time of my entire life. The pain and grief are so incredibly hard. You and your beautiful family will be in my prayers.
    Love you,

  2. praying for you, ashlee! it is definitely a heartache that i wouldn't wish on anyone. thankful that we can rest in His promises that joy truly will come from mourning. xoxo

  3. Praying for you friend. I take comfort that you are ever so eager to seek Him regardless of your heartache. And thank you for sharing something so private and intimate. You have no idea how one reader will be affected and encouraged by your own testimony.